Not much to say

What others are saying, though, is worth looking at.

Ben's blog has a lot to say and I'm not sure he said much of it this time. That's unusual. See "My Friend Ted Wrote This" for 4/23/04. Good stuff. I get so tired of china-doll Christianity. My life isn't like that. I don't know that anyone who is really alive has that type, either.

Got the first bit of home study paperwork off this morning. Nearly ready to send off the first of the dossier. Just need to make copies. Brian is spazzing over his part of the paperwork and he had the nerve to whine this afternoon that I wasn't doing it for him like Karen did Patrick. What can I say? Karen is nicer than I am. Deal with it.

Lost sleep over the adoption process for the first time this past week--and it happened two or three nights in a row. Woke up worried about money and afraid in general. Fees are starting to take full force and the idea of traveling is starting to take hold, not to mention the idea of starting over again. I have to keep reminding myself not to let fear make my decision. For that matter, I'm not doubting we're doing the right thing. I'm just terrified of what we're doing!

Does that make any sense at all?

Michael brought his new girlfriend in yesterday. I like her. She's quiet and sweet and level-headed. He'd better hold onto her. His first time around got him two great kids but not much else except trouble. I hope he's smarter at 30 than he was at 20!

No Lemonade Stand since Thursday when I had pink-eye. Didn't even think about it until late this morning. I must be withdrawing successfully--at least until Rich breaks my record.