Stewing

After several years of just wanting to sit on the sidelines, I finally want to do something again at church. I've had some folks who say they will "get back," but nothing, so far, has happened. I'm wondering about the next step. I'm wondering if Bob was right when he said I shouldn't discount a couple things I discounted a long time ago.

I am wondering where I fit. I have a fear of what usually happens: thinking I've found a "fit," only to find it isn't one; actually, it is more than fear. It's terror. If you know my history, you understand why.